I’ve read about how it’s typically difficult for adults with autism to remain employed, and I can completely see why. Never been officially diagnosed, but I’m pretty sure it’s a foregone conclusion in the way that I constantly over analyze every action taken by my co-workers and supervisors
So yeah there’s definitely some ND thought here, but I also can’t seem to get past how fake everything feels. And it feels like I have to play along with their little game where they all assume different personalities between the hours of 9-5 instead of being themselves. Because contrary to popular belief, individuals aren’t beneficial to capitalism, drones are
I hate my brain
If it helps up until very recently people with autism had a much lower life expectancy in general so things are getting better.
Me personally, I am riddled with ADHD, and it has taken me a long time to find an environment where I can do okay. Even properly medicated I don't think I would do okay in a straight office type place. So find you a job where everyone gets PTSD and you will have a better chance of fitting in if this one doesn't work out.