Back again with one of these threads. You all know the drill!
Rough night last night. Didn't go to the office today, but am still sitting in on a 4 hour meeting. Got another one on Friday. Tomorrow night I get to be stuck in a room with 3 people that don't like me. Hooray! I'll have a few friends there at least, so I can go disappear with them when needed, to some degree at least.
Gonna buy myself a nice sandwich later to soothe the soul, and bathe the pups tonight and stay sober.
Great! Terrible! Great: Have been exercising in the morning, eating salads for lunch, took a bike ride for the first time since a bike injury 6-7 months ago...met someone...really really like them and they like me- crazy cool, mildly financially stable rn for first time in long time! Terrible: Got an email from a state board today...long story short, my employer might have to let me go because the state will not rubber stamp something...the company is great, I'm great, fuck the state for taking months to sign a single piece of paper and now likely, I'll have to let go of this great job because of it...This email really pushed me out of my window of tolerance, we really thought we had gotten it all sorted out and we're going to be able to move forward...deep sigh.
So, trying to look at this as a growth opportunity. my life is better right now than it has been in...3 years easily. Dont let my brain hyper focus on problems, I am warm, dry, fed, and loved. Grateful for my comrades, and have leftist book club tonight! almost finished reading Red Star over China( great book!!)
Hell yeah! Good luck on that form!