honestly covid has broken me and I just ignore it now, no mask and shit, whatever. I know full well everything. I know. But it's hot as fuck as work, I cannot bear it, at least after "the health inspector" said my giant industrial fan had to go (it could "blow particles onto the food" but like I had it angled towards the floor. Yeah it moved a lot of air but like... nothing large is gonna get picked all the way up, and like particulates... idk the regular ass HVAC I'm sure blows a lot of dust around. I saw a vent in a different area blowing near food that looked visibly nasty! but hey). My partner also is like, done. She doesn't wear a mask to the store or anything. She does kickboxing at a gym with no AC and like can't mask for that

i'm just resigned to the fact that I'll probably get it over and over until it kills me. That will be true no matter what personal steps I take, honestly

Hell maybe covid is why the artery in my neck keeps visibly throbbing + it sometimes feels like a hand on my throat. hahaha I should see a doctor but $$$$