A lot has changed for me this past month, the biggest change would be working again so now I have a wage. Work is boring and sometimes stressful due to being around too many people so I think to combat that stress I’ve been going to the store at a certain time and buying nutrigrains and heating them in the microwave, I eat about four of them at work and the remainder at home. I have an obvious eating disorder I don’t want to gain any weight so I’ve been on a strict diet of rice and bean every day for the past year. The diet didn’t come about because of my ED it came about because it was the cheapest option for me but now even though I can cook other things I don’t really want to change anything, except now after adding nutrigrain to my diet.
I don’t feel that great, I’m very tired now when I used to have a lot of energy, I want to sleep more and stay in bed and not get out, I feel really down, I keep pinching my tummy and don’t like how I look even though there is probably no change visually I just feel like there is. I don’t know if this is depression from work or depression from adding bad sugars to my diet, the stress from the job makes me eat more and want to just dump my diet or whatever it is and just start eating whatever I want, that’s what a lot of my coworkers have done because I guess they’re depressed too, my supervisor told me he used to be active then he just started eating more once he started working here, I feel like that has stuck and I’m now just going off on a binge of nutrigrains.
How do I stop eating sugar
Eating that many nutrigrain bars in a day may be unhealthy in the long term because of the sugar content. You may also be deficient something in your diet and your body is trying to get that from the nutrigrain bars as it kind of sounds like your rice and beans diet is a little too restrictive. Maybe you might be interested in taking a multivitamin? Those can improve your energy levels and mood a lot if your diet isn't complete.
I would recommend not being too hard on yourself - it's not a morally bad thing to eat what you want to as an adult. It sounds like the change in energy could be from your diet, but if you've been spending a lot more mental energy worrying and ruminating that could account for it too. If you can, find something fun to do that you feel like you haven't had the energy to do, and see if you can do it - even if you can't do a great job or do it for a long time (like art, reading a book, going for a walk, watching a special movie or TV show, etc). Give yourself something to occupy your time with other than sleeping, pinching your belly and worrying about eating a box of nutrigrain bars. Breaking the mental cycle of rumination and self punishment is as simple as making your brain do something else sometimes.
Good luck! :juche-rose: