I've acted like a cishet man for so long I don't know how to stop

I feel like almost every social interaction I have nowadays except with really close friends is just a complete reflex to be this fake guy I made up

It's especially bad when I talk to men so I'm also mostly avoiding all my male friends but obviously I would rather not do this

I don't even know who I am anymore

  • nathanfieldertulpa [she/her]
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    1 year ago

    i feel this and yeah idk how to rly stop it most of the time. have you looked into internal family systems? i kinda see my cis persona as a protector who takes control sometimes when i feel unsafe (even for non trans reasons, something that triggers my cptsd could make regress back into them) and i try to negotiate with them to let me take the wheel lmao.