I've acted like a cishet man for so long I don't know how to stop
I feel like almost every social interaction I have nowadays except with really close friends is just a complete reflex to be this fake guy I made up
It's especially bad when I talk to men so I'm also mostly avoiding all my male friends but obviously I would rather not do this
I don't even know who I am anymore
yeah, meeting my bf actually helped because he wasnt judgmental. let me peel away my façade more completely.
i had the hardest time actually using my feminine voice, there was a big mental barrier against using it even though it passed very well. especially hard to deal with around family