I've acted like a cishet man for so long I don't know how to stop
I feel like almost every social interaction I have nowadays except with really close friends is just a complete reflex to be this fake guy I made up
It's especially bad when I talk to men so I'm also mostly avoiding all my male friends but obviously I would rather not do this
I don't even know who I am anymore
I'm ftm so I have the opposite problem of acting meek and vulnerable and as a big gay bear it has led to some upsetting social faux paus. I had to get away from most former friends to completely shed my skin but they were also toxic so
What I can say is that the longer you have been transitioned the more you'll feel like yourself.