I've acted like a cishet man for so long I don't know how to stop
I feel like almost every social interaction I have nowadays except with really close friends is just a complete reflex to be this fake guy I made up
It's especially bad when I talk to men so I'm also mostly avoiding all my male friends but obviously I would rather not do this
I don't even know who I am anymore
i understand this completely and find myself having to pull back when i go too deep into that persona. i don't necessarily know if i wanna abandon every aspect of who i was because there were things that i liked, but i have to be mindful of when my behavior is a impediment to other people perceiving me as a woman. i think journaling after situations in which you're uncomfortable with your behavior could really help you get a bead on where your personal line is