Kind of a hot take but I think it’s normal for men to have essentially mysoginstic thoughts to some extent, it’s an effect of the patriarchal system/culture and our relations towards women within that system, and also perhaps of the inherent antagonism in relationships. When I say it’s normal I mean it’s basically the default, the mode of thinking that we inherit from society, not that it’s necessarily a natural thing. But it’s something to work through, if your seeing women as somehow especially alien to yourself, or turning individual traumatic experiences into harmful generalisations. From your description it sounds more like a consequence of trauma rather than genuine belief. I would prioritise finding a therapist who doesn’t dismiss your concerns and can help you work through them.
Kind of a hot take but I think it’s normal for men to have essentially mysoginstic thoughts to some extent, it’s an effect of the patriarchal system/culture and our relations towards women within that system, and also perhaps of the inherent antagonism in relationships. When I say it’s normal I mean it’s basically the default, the mode of thinking that we inherit from society, not that it’s necessarily a natural thing. But it’s something to work through, if your seeing women as somehow especially alien to yourself, or turning individual traumatic experiences into harmful generalisations. From your description it sounds more like a consequence of trauma rather than genuine belief. I would prioritise finding a therapist who doesn’t dismiss your concerns and can help you work through them.