She started showing up when I was around 16 (late 30s now.) I only see her like twice a year but every time I do the dreams are so intense I spend the next day in that sort of distorted state where I can't quite shake how real it was. Every time I see her I recognize her instantly in my dreams and we have such an overwhelming connection, stronger then I've ever experienced in real life. She feels right, like a mythical soulmate.
I've felt since the first time I saw her that she's a real person. She's beautiful but like real person beautiful not Hollywood, and she's aged along with me. I can't shake the feeling the that I'm supposed to find her, like our souls are connected from some past life. I of course have no idea how so in a couple of days she'll fade to the back of my mind again, showing up only in stray thoughts till she pops up in my dreams again months later.
Idk I'm just a little worked up today and wanted to share with people who might not think I'm crazy.
One of the Jungian archetypes is the anima. She is the repressed feminine aspect of a person whose masculine aspect is dominant (meaning in control of the conscious, not meaning aggressive). She is typically encountered first during the late teens and early twenties in dreams.
I don’t know how much stock you want to put into Jungian psychoanalysis, but from this perspective, there’s a good reason that you recognize her so quickly, why she’s aged along with you, why you feel as if your souls are connected, and why she fades back into your mind. It’s that she’s part of your unconscious. Not part of your ego, but still part of you.
For what it’s worth, I’ve met mine many times. Similar to you, it’s always very intense, and feels spiritually significant despite me not being a very spiritual person. It’s kind of like seeing an old friend, just bumped up to the emotional intensity of a relationship in the honeymoon stage.
I’d be curious to know how Jung viewed Trans issues though my instinct is that he’d dismiss it as enantiodroma and overfixation on gender personas. Probably the reason why I stopped reading his stuff