Im mostly just typing this out for myself, but I'll gladly read any replies. No promises I'll respond but I'll at least see it cause im fucking constantly online.
Am I depressed? Yes. I work 70 hours a week, and my gas is still gonna get shut off since i don't get paid in time to meet the minimum. I cancelled a date tonight because the idea of having to have 1 on 1 time, even with guaranteed sex, fills me with anxiety and get my heart racing in a bad way. I don't even feel like touching my partner anymore. It feels too much like an expectation to me, something I just kinda do to make them happy. I used to have a high drive, but it seems to have just disappeared over the last few months like a switch was flipped. No change in my brain meds (Lexapro and lamotrigine), hopefully seeing my psych next week.
I have no desire to do anything these days, and everything seems like way more of a chore than it should. By "these days" I mean as far back as my ADHD ass brain can clearly remember. So less than a year but more than 6 months.
I don't know what else to say here so I'm gonna end the post. Thanks for coming to my Ted talk, don't forget to like and subscribe.
dawg if you had the energy and interest to get sexy after working 70 hours you'd be a rare bird, that shit drains people. This isn't on you, this is surely on the pressures and effort of 70 miserable hours of labor every week.
Fair, but this has been going on longer than I've been doing this work schedule (been doing this about a month, issues have been going on for longer)
in that case I believe you may be in the depression club
I have a seat for you over here and we'll be having tea and sandwiches in a few minutes
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