Im having trouble with who I am and who I want to be, yet the person that I want to be is an imposible perfect person made up by the imposible expectations of my narcisict parents who ignore the reality of being alive today and the cost of everything.

I have to learn to forgive myself as my parents made me feel guilty for not being able to fix their lives. They wanted me to be their conselor, their financial advisor, their house cleaner etc.