I woke up almost 3 hours earlier than usually, and pretty much immediately had to start going off on my doctor about my lexapro. Chilled for a while after, did small things around the house, napped, and just got back from a not-quite-practice sesh with the bands drummer. We mostly just hooked my amps up to different speakers and played with different gain pedals to get good tone for recording.

I dunno, things have just felt....off all day. Sitting in the twilight with the corgi rn and the feeling still hasn't gone away.

Oh well, I guess shrug-outta-hecks

  • LocalOaf [they/them]
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    26 days ago

    Saw this yesterday and wanted to reply to it but was going to bed and got too tired to write something but was thinking about it and writing something else brought me back to it so I'm editing that to fit here

    Had a weird ambient foggy kind of mental distance between myself and other people and the world lately. It's a nearly constant companion but it ebbs and flows for me and lately it's been pretty thick and just feels like some kind of background radiation or ground electrical hum to me where complete strangers or traffic noises are all somehow passively hostile to me in particular, like I'm just fundamentally out of phase with the world in a way that creates feedback and dissonance around the people are in phase with it, idk. (yes, I do have a GAD diagnosis lol, but it's... different lately in a way that's hard to place.)

    Yeah, I dunno what it is, I don't buy into astrology but lunar cycle stuff does make animals act strange sometimes and there was a "supermoon" recently? I dunno, the vibes definitely have felt off in a distinct way that's noticeably different from how fucked the vibes are ordinarily though.

    sicko-wistful

      • LocalOaf [they/them]
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        26 days ago

        Woke up really early and couldn't go back to sleep but I went for a long walk in the woods that was nice and feel better today overall. shrug-outta-hecks