I actually disagree here, capitalism has made it even worse because of factory farming, i think buying meat today in a market is so much worse than even 200 years ago.

It has mostly just increased the scale. Animals were killed after about 1/10th of their lifespan, medical care was non-existent, calves were removed early from mothers and raised for slaughter months later, veal was just this but with less mobility, chickens fought each other in cramped conditions, pigs were fed garbage, etc etc.

But still, for instance no matter how much alienation there is imo doing something like going to work for lockheed martin or becoming a cop (etc.) are worse than pretty much any consumption habit you could do outside of like cannibalism or personally torturing animals because you think it makes them taste better or something like that.

Alienation changes the social relation, making one have a relationship to commodities rather than their own or others' production. You know Bob that has chickens. You don't know basically anything about the decontextualized off-white slabs in the refrigerator section, only that it is basically fungible with the other slabs and how much it costs.

Re: using one's labor to do bad things, being the paid animal torturer is just one step removed from the supermarket slab. The conditions and lives of livestock are usually torturous and slaughter isn't exactly kind. As stated earlier, you're effectively just paying someone to do the deed for you. Capitalism helps by making it so you don't have to know their name or directly interact with them and ensures they get paid as little as possible. Being a laborer for the imperial machine is bad, but can be hard to quantify for comparisons. For example, what does one thing of the precarious immigrant workforce that gets stuck with jobs like janitorial work at the bombs sales department? How do we consider the personal complicity of the person clearing the waste bin of someone that just got a big bonus for being part of a successful big bid contract? What if they are employed by that person to clean their personal home instead? What if they are a professor that taught them skills for that job? There is a network with degrees of proximity and we should do our best to remove ourselves from the closest ones in the ways practicable.

oh? what's the show, it's not ringing a bell for me (i don't really watch much tv tbh with you)

It's a spoiler for the show so I won't say unless you want a spoiler!

once again, maybe this isnt perfectly rational but there's something about deciding to take a life vs consuming the flesh of the already dead life that feels very different to me.

It is different in experience, in the social relation. But not the outcome. "It would already be produced" is an argument that always pops up in conversations about consumption and production. Its logic applies just as well to every commodity consumed and produced. The Cobalt would be mined. The animal would be dead. The bomb would get sold. Paying someone to do it for you via commoditization doesn't remove one's culpability, but it can change the calculus on whether it is practicable to abstain and have that translate into decreased demand for the bad thing. For Cobalt, we can't specifically target child labor via consumption choices. For animal products, we can.

In my opinion, personally killing the animal is identically bad for a person to do as paying someone to do it, only maybe a bit worse in that now another worker is roped into the deed. It all also feeds into the normalization if animals as food, materials, commodities, rather than thinking, feeling beings.

In my head I still think personally showing up to kick someone else out personally is worse than just moving in to an empty house you know has been recently vacated by the IOF

If nobody wanted to move into the house there would be no settlers there. It is an essential part of settler-colonialism. The "less bad" option is really just a division of labor for the bad deed, but the total act requires both, they are part of the same whole. The American moving in us complicit and is a very important part of the expulsion.

don't really understand what you mean by they cannot understand your meanings sorry.

They understand politics through bourgeouis electoralism and will stop listening if you tell them you don't vote.

No telepathy necessary here, I think neuralink is the most infamous animal abuse disguised as ethical testing program in a long time, so naturally it's the first thought to anyone's head, and are you really a communist if you don't dream about the violent death of elon musk at least once a week?

Personally I'm enjoying his fall from grace among the wider population because I can really rub IRL libs' faces in it. Tesls owners that believed "smartest man in the world" nonsense lol