i live with my parents right now, and i often have thoughts that they are tired of me and going to have me killed or something.
my mom tells me she loves me all the time but i always feel like theres some secret resentment that im still around.
idk i just wish i wasnt so scared all the time.
it sucks living like this
Im starting to get to that point. Ending it to be relieved of the paranoia
At least what worked for me was a simple thought exercise.
If what I’m experiencing is so unbearable I’d rather be dead, what have I got to lose trying to get some help. If it doesn’t work I can still kill myself, it’s not like trying to get help and failing would make me immortal.
Silly as it sounds, when I thought about it this way the idea of getting help didn’t seem so scary anymore.