It’s like you’re super engaged and feel like you could do x forever until you suddenly crash. Then you’re bored for either a second or like a month (no rhyme or reason but the chaos in front of you) until the next thing comes along. But Godamn that boredom is real and often leads to sadness. I need a why to the whole thing
Christ I don’t know if this is relatable, but it explains a lot of my problems be it people I’m obsessed with for a sec and genuinely think I love or a different type of work assignment or a hobby of some kind
I can only stand spending so much time on a particular thing. Two examples:
I have to make about 20 cement blocks. It has taken more than a year. Repeated tasks are just the worst.
I set up a home server, got basic functionality and quit because I got stuck trying to figure out how traefik works with docker. Finally went back to it after about a year. Managed to get past that hurdle, even if I can't saying figured out how traefik works. Its working now and that's whatmatrers to me.