I realize those two things can go hand-in-hand. I genuinely don’t mean to be offensive and am asking in earnest. I personally was born male assigned at birth, feel pretty male but also hate being male. It’s not that I wish I was something else, I just don’t like being male and can’t relate to most “male experiences” besides having a dick. I don’t know anyone who is not cishet irl, so I could definitely use some education in this area
To say I hated being a guy is an understatement. I didn't know if I'd be comfortable if I transitioned, what I did know is that something had to change and I had already tried a litany of medications to no avail, it was basically my last ditch effort to stay alive. Of course, I knew deep down I was trans in a dozen different ways, I just handwaved those things away to avoid upending my life and making myself a target (spoiler: I was already a target, I swear the psycho bullies of my youth had a better trans/gaydar than I do).