Long story short he's back at me again because I asked him for $5 so I could grab smokes, even though I lied and said it was to buy a coffee (fuck him). Laid into me about how I suck and I'm a parasite.
Like I said in the title it puts my self-esteem in the dumps because I can't just move away and tell him to eat shit and die and never speak to him again. I'm beholden to this fucking monster that hates me.
And the funny part is I had a plan to quit smoking this weekend now I'm saying fuck it to that because what's the point?
Friend, you have brought the people here so much joy and wisdom. My life, and the lives of many others, has been made richer and more joyful by your humor, your insights, your companionship.
I'm sorry you're feeling so badly. It's awful not being able to live the image of who you think you should be. It's awful to be dependent on someone who does not appreciate or respect you. You deserve better than this and I hope you will have it.
Thanks. It means a lot. I'm feeling a bit better now. The USA is a paradise for domestic abusers. My dad verbally abused my mom and her and I couldn't leave because fucking housing isn't a human right so we were stuck at home. Like I said it feels like it's designed that way on purpose to keep the victims trapped.
Seconded.