It's been rough. But at my weakest moment, a voice in my head reminded me, "You can't give in or internet communists will call you a cheesebreather." I would like to specifically thank @Angel@hexbear.net as well as anyone else who I might have seen throwing it around for keeping me honest.
My friends did pick up breadsticks for me which helped because it's basically the same kind of slop but without the cruelty.
I'm usually eating on my own where I never struggle with controlling my diet, but those social situations when it's free and I'm the only vegan in the room can be super challenging. But I know if I'd made an exception I'd feel guilty later and it would make it harder to assert in the future. Now I really need to reward myself and splurge on like the best vegan pizza I can find.
Pic of cow as a rememinder of what it's all about 
What grinds my gears too is vegsn slop is fucking cheap. We also wanna eat trash! I'm not at all here for my own health, I know for a fact vegans are capable of putting some liquor back and chomping down a million dumplings, stop giving me fucking rice bowls I can make from.what I have at home and make a tofu taquito platter.
A co worker was told by an ER doctor that he's essentially speed running cancer ans he doesn't fuck around half as hard as I do. He's 10 years older and I fucked around twice as hard as I do now when I have his age and am now feeling doomed. I have never ever been in this for myself and it's usually the first assumption I need to correct. Although really, my diet is pretty great, it's the booze and cigarettes that are the problem
I don't get to decide what I feel, I can only decide how to act.
Hopefully, eventually it clicks one day and all you feel is disgust and anger when you look at carni "foods".
I get where you're coming from, but veganism does handle a hefty shift in mindset. Most of us were raised and taught to believe that animal flesh and secretions are food. Though one can logically acknowledge that using such a descriptor of "food" for animal products is carnistic and therefore bad in mentality, they can still be struggling to completely move past that mentality even with that level of self-awareness. These are not mutually exclusive.
Of course, I'm not saying to promote apologism, but definitely acknowledge the difference between someone struggling to accept the premise of veganism, i.e., believing that humans should not exploit animals, and them going through a phase where they are slowly but surely aligning their mindset with such a premise as pieces start to come together.
The discrepancy between how correct veganism is and how much society pushes against it can really create the most absurd kinds of cognitive dissonance, I'd say.
It's not that deep I was literally just responding in the same vein as what OP in her first paragraph explicitly said was helpful, amazing how I got 3 different comments acting like I was being an asshole including the one from op lmao
Ah, I didn't even realize. I guess the fact that you can't really sniff out tone through online text sometimes hinders that ability.
I know you're very unapologetic (and that's based as fuck), but you know, I didn't wanna call you an asshole. I just wanted you to have a bit more empathy, even if it's with someone who has a carnistic mentality.
Never had to exert serious effort into not eating gore, no
Do you have to consciously remind yourself not to eat that day and a half old opossum corpse on the side of the road? Do you constantly catch yourself salivating at the thought of stabbing your grandma and carving up her thighs for your next meal? None of that occurs to me at any point in my day.
