Eh. I have thing going on that I'm looking forward to, trying to keep my head up with things, but right now there's this issue that's putting a shadow over everything.
I try to talk to the person involved, but they've kept at it to this point where I don't want to be around them. I've tried to be gentle about it, but it's like everything I said gets forgotten in a week and I'm the bad person for putting my foot down after.
I think it feels worse because I know what I need to do, but it's going to make a lot of things very difficult, and it's going to take accepting that someone who was very important in my life isn't the person I knew when we reached that point. That neither of us are.
Every day I go to all my part time jobs, and they take so much from me that I cannot recover what I've lost before the beginning of my next day of shifts.
Every day, I lose more and more of me. Until one day, there will be nothing left and I will quit one or all of my jobs and be unable to afford housing, and become homeless (again).
Do you live in America ? I've heard stories like this from Americans ... I hope it goes well with you anyway
Putting my kitty down this afternoon. Almost made it to 20. Very sad. On Xanax though.
Edit: thank you everyone. He’s gone now. We had an at-home service put him down. He went incredibly peacefully, purring loudly as the first injection went in.
We’re about to drive him to his brother’s grave (who died five years ago) and bury him there so they can forever snuggle.
Thanks for giving your kitty as good a life as you could. Don't let the end cloud your vision from the good times.
If/when you're ready, there are more lost souls to save out there. I wish I could have cats myself, but I am not stable enough to house them. Maybe some day I will foster, but even that is probably to much for me to handle.
Thank you for your kind words. He lived an incredible life. Working is going to be a lot more lonely without him constantly bothering me to snuggle with me all day.
When his brother died five years ago, he was so lonely… so we adopted two baby kittens so he could be their mum. He took to them immediately, cuddling and playing and loving them. I think that might have extended his life. They’re a little confused right now with him not moving, but we didn’t let him see his brother after he died, which I think was a mistake.
About to go drive to his brother’s grave to bury him with his brother so they can snuggle eternally.
We all deserve to thrive, not just survive. Glad to hear you are doing well. Take care.
That's nice , I have pomegranate in the fridge and I was planning to eat it
That's good to know.... I have the same feelings whenever I go back home from college... like college is good but nothing is cozier or nicer than being able to rest after a busy day
Try to stay away from stress reasons for a while if possible , hope you get better soon
Ever try psychedelics? I fully understand they aren't for everyone, but it helped me get away from the autopilot feeling in life.
Unfortunately, most days I wish I could go back to autopilot. Being aware and present can be a curse.
14 years ago. Man they were hard years. Here's to the even worse years that are still to come.
