I am currently re-researching ADHD management (for gods know what time already) after wasting the entirety of the past two days.
Wherever I go, I only see people talking about medication. How good it is, how to approach it, what to expect from it, how it was impossible before meds, how to treat them, etc.
I cannot obtain meds. Stimulants are illegal in my country. Strattera isn't, but I am afraid that I will not be able to pursue diagnosis for reasons I am not going to share here. Please do not tell me how good meds are - there is nothing I can do to have them.
I tried organising my thoughts, having a schedule, and so on (org mode in emacs), but I have forgotten about it, every single time I tried it. I have set up a periodic notification to remind me of it, I quickly started ignoring that.
What can I do to make it better? How can I make sure that I will not just forget to do the things that make it better? How can I make sure that I will not outright ignore the things that help me?
Well, I've been to a psychiatrist who will not prescribe me stimulants or even fucking ask me questions about how I'm feeling until I have a neuropsychologist's assessment that I have ADHD. He only prescribes me arbitrary amounts of Wellbutrin and sends me on my merry way. It helps with my mood but does fuckall for my focus, so what I do is drink a lot of coffee and chain-vape the whole day, but I don't know whether or not that helps or is simply a habit of mine.
What does in fact help me is to make much use of my Google Calendar to remind me of all my work commitments (I absolutely will forget them if I don't set up reminders) and if there's a specific thing I need to focus on, I use the Pomodoro method with some app for convenience. That is assuming I remember that I have a task to do and manage to muster the initiative to actually get started, which often doesn't happen.