Hello comrades and welcome to the third improvement megathread of October! 
As usual, some discussion ideas:
- Do you want to share something you've done in the previous week? Everything counts, nothing is too small.
- Do you have any goals or plans for next week?
- Do you have any streaks? For example, "sober for one day." Feel free to post your streak every day in this thread.
- If you don't have a continuous streak, did you manage to abstain from something for a day or more?
- Did you come across some useful information or resource that might help others?
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The Matter of honor of the Soviet specialists - give your experience and knowledge.
FROM THE OFFICE - TO A MINE, TO A SITE!"
Good luck with your goals! 
Turns out getting back on the wagon when your heart isn't in it is harder than I thought. I bought a fifth of rum and drank it in 2 days. Life is just kind of miserable and this little bit of escapism helps in a way I need it to. I need to make a whole bunch of changes before not drinking becomes a serious option for the long term and I fear those changes are harder than I can manage. Seeing the absolute depravity of the world and being completely helpless to do anything productive about it sure as fuck doesn't help either. Shit is hard and I just wish I had a reasonable path towards a better future