What I mean is that I have ADHD, I got diagnosed this summer, but sometimes I feel like I don't have ADHD in the right way. I struggl with ADHD a lot, and it really affects me, but for some reason I feel like I'm using it as an excuse or faking my symptoms. Even though I know I'm not?

ADHD affects me very negatively and it makes being in college way, way harder for me than other people. But hyperactivity is less of a symptom for me than other ADHDers (but still a thing), so i feel like im faking my condition.

Like, I have an official, medical diagnosis. Nobody thinks I'm playing up or faking my symptoms. So then why the hell do I get like this?

Also I very likely have autism but diagnosis is very expensive so that's another issue

  • roux [he/him, they/them]
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    18 days ago

    ND comms is popping off tonight. I love this lol. ASD here with a few co-morbitities

    I read a lot of people end up with imposter syndrome after or running up to a diagnosis.

    I got it after like 6-8 years of occasional research, which is a telltale sigh you might be autistic. I finally got a diagnosis last year from my therapist. Not the big diag but she was still like " you're hella autistic" and she's pretty dang smart about neurodivergence.

    But I still had the imposter syndrome stuff going for a couple months after. Since then I've even met people in the ND space that could tell in like 5 minutes of meeting me. I also even did more reading on it. I'm finally more just accepting and learning how to mask properly(never really learned so guess who the weird kid was?)like, I do mask but poorly. I borrow phrases and postures from friends and such but I didn't know that was masking until my last deep dive.

    ImpSyn is pretty much gone at this point but I also recognize when I've been heavily masking and after I can stop I go into decompression mode for a few hours and am back to a baseline. Goofy, sarcastic, dorky me.