What I mean is that I have ADHD, I got diagnosed this summer, but sometimes I feel like I don't have ADHD in the right way. I struggl with ADHD a lot, and it really affects me, but for some reason I feel like I'm using it as an excuse or faking my symptoms. Even though I know I'm not?
ADHD affects me very negatively and it makes being in college way, way harder for me than other people. But hyperactivity is less of a symptom for me than other ADHDers (but still a thing), so i feel like im faking my condition.
Like, I have an official, medical diagnosis. Nobody thinks I'm playing up or faking my symptoms. So then why the hell do I get like this?
Also I very likely have autism but diagnosis is very expensive so that's another issue
I was diagnosed very recently; and like you; I still sometimes don't think I have it and everyone I talk to doesn't believe it either because I don't match the stereotype of people on the spectrum.
Everyone also denies my other identities too because I also don't fit their stereotypes and I think that repetition of that experience is driving me away from doing the homework since there's nothing that reaffirms this identity unlike some of my others; especially so w LGBT & Brown.
That is until I stumbled upon this community a few days ago; reading some of these posts about spectrum behavior makes it feel like everyone here is gossiping about me without calling me out by name. Lol