I'm a neurodivergent, asocial person. Always have been. Though i still have had a few friends during my life. I managed to get by for a while with just the 2-3 people I talk to, but recently I've started to get really lonely. The way i've made friends in the past has been someone approaching me, not the other way around though. I don't know how to make friends/acquaintances with other people on my own. Me growing up with the internet probably played a role in my lack of real life social skills, i'm guessing
I go through long stretches of self isolation and have emerged back into the world successfully multiple times. I'm currently back in hermit mode and needing to get my shit together so I can get my life moving forward productively again, so I might be able to relate. But I don't want to go rambling on an unhelpful tangent.
Are you asking for direct practical advice, commiseration or just other people's experiences / strategies for socialising-while-awkward?
Edit: I see your condition is VERY similar to mine. Not to project too hard, but I would definitely make a post like this then ghost it. lol