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Thanks. She said other stuff too, I can't remember all of it but I remembered one other thing. I've told her about this forum before, about how a couple of people here helped me get food, and she was appalled at me for begging strangers for help and told me to stop doing that. In this most recent session she told me I should join a class to get a social life, and because I don't feel well enough for activities like that at the moment, I reminded her about this forum and told her the people here have been nice to me and I have all of you to talk to. She asked a bit about it and when I said it's a socialist/communist forum she told me to stop talking to you all because you'll put ideas in my head and I'll get brainwashed.
It shows she doesn't even really listen to me, because I've already told her I'm very much far-left, nobody is brainwashing me, I already think these thoughts, and also she'd apparently prefer me to have no-one at all to talk to if I'm not up to doing activities in real life. And she'd prefer I have no food either since she told me to stop asking for help getting food on here.
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Thanks. The impression I get of her isn't that she's been hurt, but the total opposite. She just comes across like she's never had an actual problem in her life. She's very young and seems to have had a very easy life. She seems to have no concept at all of problems. Like she seems to just genuinely not even comprehend the fact that with no money and a very difficult to access local foodbank, no family to help, I can't get food any other way than either shoplifting or begging. She seems like she really doesn't understand this. Or like she thinks help is much easier to access than it is, because she's never had to try accessing it. Same thing with my fear of impending homelessness, she just doesn't seem to understand why losing the roof over my head is such a big deal to me. She always says "I can give you leaflets about emergency shelters if it comes to that." She just won't even try to understand that having to pack up my belongings, move from place to place, perhaps end up in a bad shelter or even on the streets, while I'm having cancer treatment and recovering from a stroke, is just too much for me and I would rather die.
But then, a lot of society seems to be like this. Like "society has a safety net," "there is help out there," these people just don't understand that if you're ill or disabled and live like this for years on end, or perhaps even permanently, it completely wears you down. Every day there is some problem, some battle to fight. Like, OK we have disability benefits. But it's an endless fight to keep them, with constant reassessments and appeals. There is no financial security. And yes we have foodbanks, but in some towns it can take over a week to access, and they give you three days worth of food and then you go through the process again you always have at least 4 days without food in between. And the food they give you isn't nutritionally adequate, if you have to survive on it for long periods you get deficiencies. And yes there are shelters and things for the homeless, but sometimes they're full or deeply unpleasant or difficult to access or whatever, hence many people ending up on the streets. It's not easy and it just doesn't end. When you live like this for a long time, it's reasonable that suicide seems like the only viable option. Then people insult the person who dies by suicide, "What a selfish person, how could they do this? Didn't they know people cared about them and are hurt by their suicide? Some poor person had to find the body!" Constantly blaming the dead person rather than admit that society drove them to it.