hexbee [she/her]

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Joined 8 days ago
Cake day: November 13th, 2024
  • hexbee [she/her]todisabled•Disabled Community Megathread - November 18th, 2024 to November 24th, 2024
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    2 days ago

    I had a nice dream last night (as in, not a nightmare), which is a legendary rarity event for me. I was in some different world without covid, with a light rail in my home town and living a life where I have people around me that I'm connected to. All that happened was that I went to some kind of organising event and stayed a while after to chat with friendly folks. Casual physical touch, which would make me panic irl felt pleasant and welcome. Afterwards I took the light rail back home and ran into one of my most treasured friends who was on their way somewhere else. That's it, that's the dream... It sucked so bad waking up into hellworld, and realising that the time to start working to make this dream a real possibility was years, if not decades ago. Taking a moment to grieve that future by typing this up I suppose. Hope everyone is doing alright out there

  • hexbee [she/her]togames•Trump Nods Vacantly As Elon Musk Rattles Off 10th Consecutive Video Game Recommendation - The Onion
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    2 days ago

    Yeah the article's whole shtick is just "isn't it so insufferable to be around autistic people info dumping?". It's literally just a way of communicating but iT's NoT nOrMaL you see, which gives the writer a free pass to make fun of it. If I made fun of NT people every time they get on their bullshit... oh wait I'm already living that reality where I have no friends hahaha so funny. Not that I have a sympathy for musk or trump, hope they both die asap, but this ain't it folx

  • hexbee [she/her]todisabled•Disabled Community Megathread - November 18th, 2024 to November 24th, 2024
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    3 days ago

    Sending so much love to all my disabled comrades!

    I've been trying to touch grass, but it's not going so well. Feeling very overwhelmed and tired. Spent today going between feeling pissed off and being on the edge of tears.

    It's so hard to get people to show up for me in any way that matters. I feel like I spend more energy trying to get everyone around me to help, than I ever get in return by the time they forget about me again...

  • hexbee [she/her]toem_poc•EM POC WEEKLY THREAD 11/11/2024
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    5 days ago

    I can feel your love and pain through your words, I'm sorry for your loss.

    your case is probably a great outlier

    I do think it's rare, and it involved me being homeless, so not the happiest story either to be honest, but I'm just about putting it behind me recently.

    I restructured so much of my life to be devoted to them.

    The interconnectedness, deep solidarity and true comradery are one of the most divine things about a close relationship. However in an extremely atomised society such as ours, where these close bonds are only ever seen as "normal" between romantic partners, they are tested and strain immensely under the weight of the pressures we are each made to indure without the support of a wider community.

    advice, take it or leave it

    As you enter this new stage in your life, I'd encourage you to read up a bit about queerplatonic partnerships. It's at least one potential direction for your life going forward. And even if you bounce off the ideas, I hope it would at least help you to start to see an outline of a future you're happier with.

    My relationship with my partner also looks very different today than it did before. We're trying to live a life where we're two close by points in a wider network of support. We're having mixed results though to be honest, solidarity seems to be hard won these days.

    However bad what happened was, I hope you will still hold within you the belief that you're worthy of being loved. It seems like you've grown a lot together, and even though your paths must diverge, I hope you will carry your love for them forward with you as you begin to rebuild your habits and routines. Stay strong out there

  • hexbee [she/her]totraaaaaaannnnnnnnnns•Trans Megathread for the Week of November 11th, 2024 to November 17th, 2024
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    5 days ago
    hairy dysphoria talk

    I feel like I'm becoming worse and worse at shaving as time goes on. Maybe now that I'm out I actively despise the hair more and have less and less patience for it. Before I came out, I had already decided to laser the hair off my face because I hated how it looked and felt on me, and found continuously shaving really annoying. But now that I know I'm trans it feels like so much more of a big deal for some reason and I'm struggling to even get myself to look into it...