No job prospects. The work I do to support myself is come and go, and im probably gonna miss rent again. The older I get, the less friends it seems I have. None of my hobbies/passions excite me right now and just feel like a pain in the dick when I think about doing them. Every day is the same goddamn routine unless I go stay at my partners place.
It's cold and I hate going out in the cold, so that just compounds stuff further. Everything is dead outside. I'm tired, im always so tired. I can never get enough sleep no matter how much I actually get.
Feels like I'm just existing and I hate it.
I have dysthymia so I get it. It sucks feeling like you are just in waiting mode all the time just for nothing to ever really happen, and no energy to do things you otherwise enjoy.
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Ooooph yeah that waiting mode gets me too. Band added a new guy a month or two ago and we have to do practice at like 930 or 10pm cause he's got work/wife/kids, and it throws off my whole day mentally since I'm just waiting and waiting to go to the space