No job prospects. The work I do to support myself is come and go, and im probably gonna miss rent again. The older I get, the less friends it seems I have. None of my hobbies/passions excite me right now and just feel like a pain in the dick when I think about doing them. Every day is the same goddamn routine unless I go stay at my partners place.
It's cold and I hate going out in the cold, so that just compounds stuff further. Everything is dead outside. I'm tired, im always so tired. I can never get enough sleep no matter how much I actually get.
Feels like I'm just existing and I hate it.
Sorry for your loss, comrade. I can totally relate to feeling emotionally blunted. I force myself to not make new connections, but at least go out and be social with the bartenders at my favorite spot. I also like taking the corgi too, and perch up with her next to the register so everyone can pet her when they get drinks or whatever. She likes to meet people, and while I tend to not talk to much, I know it makes her happy which does a little something for me.