good ass effort post i thought, using brat to discuss the current social landscape

  • iie [they/them, he/him]
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    25 days ago

    Sorry, I edited a bunch out of my comment before i saw your response, including the part you quoted. I decided it was too personal.

    I really, really don't want to watch the second half of a video explain to me how I need to change my lifestyle and self-flagellate.

    that's not what the second half of the video is about, or I wouldn't be recommending it to you. The dysphoria part, for example, is what it says on the tin, it's about dysphoria. It's just cultural analysis, not about what you personally should do.

    To constantly do things and then hate oneself for it, repeatedly unable to change anything because of an individualistic perspective of choice and behavior, feels immensely unpleasant and the fact so many people think that way scares me.

    I don't want to misinterpret, but are you saying I hate myself? I don't feel ashamed of "rotting on the computer." I feel upset about it. That's not a feeling someone else put in me. It's not internalized protestant work ethic or ableism or whatever else. I genuinely do not like the experience.

    There were external reasons, but there was also the feedback loop I mentioned, the chicken and egg. That's my personal experience and I'm sure it's different for everyone, but it's a way that i personally relate to the idea from the video of "feelings with no one to feel them."