I was diagnosed at a young age and this isn't new, but I have become more and more frustrated with it: getting to do something often happens slow. In the gym my exercises are often interrupted by many minutes of getting stuck in my head, being distracted.
People talk about how it's okay to take breaks but I sometimes lose HOURS at home because I just don't do anything and it isn't resting either because my head keeps churning without a goal. I call it a limbo between activity and resting. Sometimes my phone or another means of distraction is to blame, but other times it's just anxiety to do something because "is this the best use of my time?" (in general I often have time anxiety)
It drives me crazy because I will have a plan of things to do that's totally reasonable and achievable, but then I only achieve a small part of it because I keep wasting so much time, I then procrastinate on the rest. This mainly affects activities/plans I've set myself, those set by others let me just obey and not have to overthink as much.
Does anyone else relate and can they share means of dealing with it?
I've never been officially diagnosed with autism, but I'm probably somewhere in the autism/ADHD spectrum.
This happens to me a lot on the weekends when I don't have the structure and schedule of work to constrain me. I'll make plans to work on a project or do chores, and then spend like 4 hours scrolling on social media. I noticed that when I tried taking CBD for back pain, this was a lot worse and I couldn't focus on anything for most of the day. ADHD meds seem to help me focus and shut out distractions, but don't help as much with motivation and procrastination.
The only times I've been totally lost in my own thoughts was when I got way too stoned and ended up staring at a wall for about 2 hours. It did feel kinda cathartic tho.