Does this make sense at all? In my head, it’s the most clear. When written, I feel like I’m not able to fully express what I’m thinking. When speaking, it’s like fucking Russian roulette and can be wonderfully put together and eloquent or stroke-like.
Is there any way to improve this or is it just the way my damn brain works?
I will back you on this, this started happening to me before I ever got COVID. And then the subsequent burnout that happened for me when everyone was "getting back to normal" and I simply could not readjust like neurotypical people did made it even worse. I won't deny that COVID could be playing a role here but it's also explainable based on what was going on socially/societally.