It is kinda ruining my life lmao. I have never felt this strongly for anyone. When we talk, I can ride that high for days. But then she gives me (what I perceive as) the cold shoulder and the depression I feel... boy. It's been like this for months. I cannot go on, man.
Confessing isn't the path to getting over it. Confessing or talking to them about your feelings is just the path forward.
Good or bad it'll bring peace over time and take away that "could've been" feeling
Either way don't feel too down about it comrade. Life is a story and it's beautiful even when it's not what you had initially planned.