I'm scared of posting too many details for fear of self doxing. But I am that guy who N95s indoors everywhere. I never unmask except in front of my partner, who also is careful. I put HEPA filters in my classroom. I also avoid unnecessary indoor activities, like cinemas, gyms and indoor sports. If there's an interesting event but there's no ventilation and no one is masking, I'll give it a pass.

There's been some positives. I'm way more self confident than I used to be, knowing deeply how shitty and ignorant the average normie is. I used to always second guess myself, and now I don't. I also spend way less money, as I don't dine nor holiday. COVID pushed me far into tankie territory, and opened my mind into better understating patriarchy and white supremacy.

Also ya, I don't get sick ever.

However, I'm such a different person today. I'm not the sweet chatty person I was in 2019. I had an almost femme twang in my voice back then, and now I'm just a ragged pissed off uncle.

One huge disadvantage is that I'm such a media consuming person. Pre covid, I'd avoid TV and games. Now it's all I do. I've become the kind of person that needs someone on in order to eat or sleep. I used to fucking hate these people, and now I've become that person.

The other huge problem is that my work productivity is way lower. I used to finish everything up in a coffee shop, now obviously I can't do that. I can definitely do more in my job and in my org. I regret that I've become, honestly, maybe a bit lazy.

  • nothx [he/him]
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    2 days ago

    I definitely feel similarly at times, but also, the pandemic and self quarantining has made me realize that my social anxiety was always bad, but I ignored it and powered through because that’s what was expected of me. The fact that COVID gave me a reason to take a break from in person commitments was kind of great for helping my understanding myself.

    That said, my ability to keep in touch with people has been hampered a bit. I’m comfortable in my bubble and rarely even think to venture out of it anymore. This causes a bit a fallout with friends that I used to see every couple days and hang out doing nothing because we could. So I see the negatives as well