Hello there everyone. A bit of context:

I've kinda known I've been genderqueer for the majority of my life. My wife and I just got married a little over a year ago after being together for 10 years (aww high school sweethearts). I've really only told her about my sexuality and gender stuff as shes been the only person I've ever been able to be myself around. She was a little weird when I told her I was bi a few years ago (consider myself pan now) but was fine with it and said she was as well. After that I started opening up about gender and that's when everything got weird and we would stop talking about it besides a few times here and there throughout the years.

Over the weekend she brought it back up saying I could use they/them if I wanted, but she thinks "we need more guys like you" in the world. I guess if I change my pronouns and don't identify as my agab I'll be wasting the potential as a guy who stands for humane rights. Shit just fucking sucks.

I feel like part of it is being an interracial couple in the Midwest and she sees it as just another struggle we have to go through. She's talked about that and I get it but it doesn't make me feel better.

Sorry for venting, but it's just so frustrating. Like is this normal for couples who go through this situation? I'm just really pissed hearing my wife say "I understand, but most guys sucks so you should be the example" when I don't feel like a guy.

  • Edgarallenpwn@midwest.social
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    1 year ago

    Thank you. The sexuality part was hard to bring up/talk about at first but we're doing fine on that front now. I brought up gender shortly after and that's been kind of an on and off again conversation for a few years now. Tbh I feel like she's trying to protect me from my own family, some of hers and just the area we live in. One of her cousins came out as NB recently and that's been a weird topic of discussion at family events when they aren't around.

    It just hurts to hear that my principles and way I've been going about life are lessened because of how I identify. Feels like I have to be a poster child for "Let people love people" instead of loving myself.