I've been smoking weed half my life, though in the past 5-6 years it definitely increased now that i work at home. I also used to sell it so I would always have a decent amount on me.
It started to feel more like a compulsion instead of just getting high. I would pack the bong and smoke it and be like, "why did i do that". Plus my tolerance is way too high, Ill rip an infused joint and not feel much, making me question myself more.
I don't drink much. Ill get a 6 pack every other month maybe and then when it's gone i don't get more for awhile. So i decided to test myself: I just wasn't going to buy weed when I ran out. I was going to try and treat it like a 6 pack. It's been 5 days no weed which is probably the longest break I've had in a decade.
Anyways if i can do it you can too, and i appreciate your support. Love you Hexes.
Holy shit I can relate to this. I was an everyday stoner. Used to sell weed too, so I had surplus all the time. I'd quit smoking so I could pass a drug test for work but then it was back to habitual smoking.
Maybe 3 years ago I had a coworker "randomly drug tested". He tested positive for weed and was fired on the spot. Scared the shit outta me. I knew I had to quit after that.
I tried quitting cold turkey but I struggled. I had a cheat day every once and a while. Like, I'd scrape my grinder clean for one hit. Or take a dirty ass resin hit from the bong. Still ended up quitting but it took some effort.
I have noticed over the years that my drinking increased to compensate the lack of smoking. I've ended up making a rule that I can only drink on the weekends. Seems to help a bit.
shit i didnt even do that, id buy that fake urine and heat it up in a microwave for a few seconds and strap it to the inside of my leg. now im like oh fuck, that's addict behavior isnt it haha.\
im lucky to have a job that doesnt test at all, even when getting hired. Crazy how all my shit jobs tested, and then i get an actual career and they don't.
I did drink the first couple nights i didn't smoke, then i ran out of beer and now i havent had either and don't really feel a strong urge to.
Last bit of irony for me - I switched jobs maybe 6 months ago and the last week at my old job they announced "employees will no longer be tested for marijuana". I'm kinda pissed about that. New job is a government job so...
But I'm not of the opinion that all vices are bad. You should be able to enjoy yourself, you just have to be in control. Little proofs to yourself like this are perfect to show you are in control or need a longer break.
i agree, it's all about moderation. It should be something you do to have fun, which is why most alcohol i've had was probably at a concert or some other outing. I've done many drugs but they were usually at parties or festivals, not just sitting at home alone. Once the habit just makes you feel like youre going through the motions it's time to evaluate.
What kind of job do you do that you can get randomly tested for what you do on your spare time?
Last job was project manager in private sector. New job is design engineer in public sector. Both randomly drug test.