What the absolute fuck am I reading?

I have to consult a reading guide for every chapter I read because the book is completely incomprehensible.

THERE ARE NOTES WITHIN THE NOTES, WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS SHIT? HOUSE OF LEAVES?

I have only read 68 pages and I have no idea what's going on. Who the fuck are all these characters? Why is this shit over 1000 pages? What am I supposed to keep an eye on when none of the chapters are in chronological order? Who am I supposed to care about? Absolute clusterfuck of a book.

The only thing I've enjoyed reading so far is the chapter about that guy who smokes a fuck ton of weed. The rest is complete gibberish to me.

Did I fall for a meme when I got reccomend this pile of dogshit of a book?

Is it called Infinite Jest because the joke is whoever got tricked into reading this shit?

What am I supposed to see in this book?