I have no friends or partner, I’ve been very lonely.
When I go out to try to meet people, no one ever comes up to me and starts talking to me. But if I want to meet someone I have to do exactly that. But like, why should I have to be the one to initiate 100% of the time? Shouldn’t it be 50/50? (And I’m not really talking about societal expectations of the man initiating with the woman, I’d rather have a boyfriend anyway.)
I have such a hard time initiating conversations with people, to the point where I mostly just stress out and sit there alone. If someone initiated with me things might go better. But they just don’t.
The only reasonable explanation I can think of is that literally no one has any interest in me.
i recently started volunteering for my local parks and leading groups to remove invasive plants. it made me realize stuff like that is a way to meet and connect with people. That's just one example that could apply to many activities. Also helps that most environmentalists are at minimum a liberal so i never have to deal with any chuds. Unfortunately ive always lived where i live so I still have some people around. Somewhere out there is a person for you who likes to talk, which is a great match for people like us who have trouble starting conversations.