I've been going through a total existential crisis for awhile. I'm terrified of death. Both for myself and my loved ones. And because of this pandemic, every time I feel weird I get a panic attack. I've run through every single religion desperate to find some way to find peace with my mortality, but nothing felt right. Is there any philosophy out there that can help me find peace?
When I had a good life I was scared of death. Then my life started to suck and I wasn't scared anymore. Now I feel indifferent towards it. There's no happiness in death, but no pain either which is good. It's just a state of neutrality