Okay okay okay. I have accepted I've developed some severe anxiety/avoidance around work. This is a Thing. However, I don't need to fix it that immediately, that's why I'm on casual now and not doing ongoing jobs. I'm gonna roll with it and see the opportunities I have ahead of me instead. I designed this flexibility in!

Instead of feeling bad all day I can tick off some things that'll make me feel good. Yesterday I "accidentally" did a heap of long overdue clothes organisation. Today perhaps I can clear out the gross carport. And maybe get started on my very overdue Dead Plant Clearout. The graveyard stares at me sullenly.