Anyone relate? I really can't date because of my physical and mental health and covid, plus poverty, but god sometimes I miss intimacy.

Sometimes I feel like I deserve this because I broke three women's hearts. And I'm truly sorry for doing that. I'm happy they're doing good now, one is even married! But I miss having someone who loved me and accepted me, someone who had my back, you know?

  • AntipastoAktion [they/them]
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    4 years ago

    I feel ya. I was a weird creepy loner as a kid and well into my teens and early adulthood - shit, well into my early 20s. I was (still am) fat and out of shape, not traditionally attractive, and neurodivergent as hell (Asperger's or some other spectrum disorder). Plenty of close friends, but never a relationship. I'm lonely as hell, and the older I get the weirder it gets overall. Being alone in your late teens? Fine. Being alone through your 20s? Strange but not bad. Into your 30s? Shit just feels pathetic.

    I'm glad I found places like this though. Like ten years ago if I hadn't had a change of heart and a change of path I probably woulda ended up hardcore down the incel pipeline I think. I'd like to think I'm getting better.

    You're valid, comrade, even if you're on your own.