idk, maybe askchapo is a better place for this.
Does anyone have like...experience or knowledge about hiring that will calm my anxieties?
I have had several customer service jobs, and as much as I don't want to do it again I have to do something and I don't feel qualified for much else.
Looking at stuff in my area there is a part-time position at a library nearby which sounds bearable....but thinking about applying for anything just gives me anxiety.
I quit my first job after working for over a year to go back to school, but I eventually went to the psych ward and dropped out.
Then some time later I tried working at a gas station, but left a note and quit one night because I couldn't handle the hours and dysphoria.
I tried getting a part time position at a grocery store a bit after that but quit after a day or two.
Since then I have just been a neet.
I am terminally unhireable.
If I go to an interview I have no idea what I am going to say. Idk what a background check is going to reveal. I'm trying to get a hold of my life, but it feels pointless at this point, I don't pass, I can't hold down a job, even if I could no one would hire me.
wtf do I even do.
:deeper-sadness:
I'm honestly thinking about just being completely honest and hoping pity gets me the job.
Idk if I can lie to people.
These are obstacles you can handle down the road since you don't have any interviews right now, but when that comes you should prepare answers to why you left each job you've had previously. It actually might be helpful to look up some youtube videos of hiring managers explaining their decision making process - pity is going to work against you most of the time. They're looking to make an economic decision, not an emotional one. A "pity" narrative is probably better told as a story of perseverance, not as a tragedy.
It's also important to remember that as awful as it is, you only need to do this until you actually get a job.
I guess...but I feel like there is a difference between the mentality of someone hiring for a firm or Corp and someone for a small town library