Pretty much everyone figures out how to actually socialize, maintain relationships, have new relationships, improve them, and date at high school, MAYBE college at the latest. I'm 30, almost 31. Did I miss the boat on learning that and having a semblance of happiness in my life, and there's no going back.
I've tried it all. I've tried social hobbies, I've tried going out, I've tried putting myself out there. The basics of social skills elude me. I am, at best, a filler friend. I can't see myself being any more than that, and I think it's too late for me to get better.
I think I doomed myself to a life of loneliness, all because of the bad choices I made. The only possible hope I can have is maybe reincarnation is real and I can suck less in the next life.
i'm in a similar situation and feel like we never actually had a choice, or a chance. the social conditions for prosperity and companionship are denied to us both by capitalism atomizing everyone and the ableism of social norms.
and before anyone says any bullshit about finding ways to feel fulfilled despite being alone as though i haven't heard that before: my hobbies and online acquaintances don't hug me at night.