oops, wait, this isn't my journal
I would never talk to another person the way I talk to myself. No one deserves that.
So! A thing that helped me was to depersonalize my self-hate so it's like I'm viciously ripping into a different person. That makes me feel gross, like a bully or something, and I now do it much less. Gotta have empathy for the stranger that is yourself.
I think I've mostly partitioned off my brain into "me" and "my brain, who horks up random thoughts"
So when this raving weirdo chimes in I get to be like "hell yeah that would be cool thanks" or "nah fuck off asshole"
You'd never say "I'm going to fucking kill you. You deserve to die. You are the lowest human scum of this earth." to anyone. So why do it to your self ?
it's not a good idea to talk to someone like that when you have to spend all day with them
this is true and correct thinking but do you ever more or less consciously know something but still feel and act differently? i do lol
I was once told that you should never say anything to yourself that you wouldn't say to a child. Treat your inner thoughts like a kid. You wouldn't say those kinds of things to a kid (I hope) so you shouldn't say those things to yourself either.
Rodney Dangerfield browsing Hexbear voice: Aaay, did my wife write this post?
I too have read a newspaper article recently. My sympathies, comrade!
how I feel reading Israeli official's latest cringe that trivializes the holocaust and devalues the word antisemitism
Hey, this guy Pete Walker's book really helped me to minimize self-attacks like you're describing. The book is called Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving.
This article describes how to combat an overactive inner critic, but I believe his book does a better job. But it's still worth a read.
Consider buying the book or you can download it for free at this link.
