I took some DCK and I cried so fucking much. About the ongoing genocide and how the occidentals always get away with it, about my working conditions, about being autistic in a neurotypical world, about how much of a fucking banger the Shadowbringers expansion for FFXIV that I played a year ago was. I fucking love this substance. It is a dissociative, but I feel more dissociated during my daily life at this point, now I finally feel like myself
Job sucks as always (working from the office, not the job itself) but at least I cooked some banger vegan noodles yesterday. I followed this recipe: https://plantbasedrdblog.com/2022/07/thai-red-curry-peanut-noodles/
I returned to office after my accomodations were taken from me (I only had them for three weeks before the senior manager learned about them), and after only two days I became as burnt out as I was before them. I don't know how I will survive for another 5 months. I started CBT with a therapist that seems really good and professional (she's also treating autism as just another neurotype which is great), so I hope that it might help.
I haven't seen Nausicaa yet. Mononoke is good but a bit too RETVRN-y for my tastes
There is no need to apologize about asking for help. Taking money out of the genocidial W*st and giving it to people who are suffering from its actions is the least we can do really (speaking as a westerner now)
Thanks for the info and for pinging
My girlfriend and experiencing worthwhile media
I don't think you can find something explicitly communist in popular japanese media tbh, at best you will get something anti-imperialist like Code Geass or the Stormblood expansion for FFXIV, or something class conscious like Kaiji
I assume you mean that you euthanized her. If so, you did the right thing comrade. My cat's last months (she had a tumor in her gut) were absolutely brutal, she didn't eat so she lost a ton of weight, she was too weak to climb stuff, she didn't take care of herself etc. My parents didn't want to do it so she just suffered unnecessarily. You have to take care of yourself, she wouldn't want you to suffer like that, I am sure of it
bump amber whatboutism volcel police
I feel myself getting more misanthropic by the minute. The compassion I have for my fellow man erodes and only rage and envy remains as my situation gets worse and worse wrt to work and neurodivergence. I feel as if nobody can help me, not my partner, not some therapist, not the union at work and especially not some manager or HR person. I am just not built for this world, I doubt I would be able to thrive under socialism either, I am way too broken for this shit. I just want to get laid off and do drugs all day while rotting away, I am so fucking tired. Even if I get an autism assessment I doubt that I will be able to get more remote days at work, those people cannot fathom how debilitating going to the office every day is for me. They actually like and welcome RTO (at least the union reps do). I can't understand them at all. They can't understand me. I am too socially exhausted to try to reach them. What is left for me except becoming another person cast away by the rest of humanity. I don't know. I am sorry for dooming like this, but I can't bother the closest people to me with this anymore, I am afraid I might turn them away.
It is possible that you are less sensitive to the effects of psychedelics, different brains can differ wildly in how they are affected by the same drug/dose. Are you neurodivergent by any chance? If so, then that might lead to you having more/less receptors in your brain causing more/less sensitivity (at least that's how my psychiatrist had explained it). Of course it is just as plausible if not more that the SNRI you took is still affecting you. You can probably find a half-life calculator to see if a month is enough to not be affected by the med (for example Prozac, an SSRI with a 5-day half-life takes around a month to leave your system, but drugs with shorter half-lives will be gone much sooner)
Sports (I have bad eye-leg/hand coordination so I was always bad at ball games)
FPS games (probably the same reason)
Posting (I am just not particularly funny, and I never remember to post the occasional insight I have)
Try lentils, they have a better texture than beans and they are more flavorful in my opinion. Since I turned vegan they are most of what I eat
It's a category of lentils. Black lentils also exist
How the fuck am I supposed to do fun things for myself while working, when it was nearly impossible even when I was unemployed thanks to executive dysfunction? I feel like I am going insane sometimes 
Here are some of my slops: