BreadBoy [he/him]

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Joined 4 years ago
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Cake day: September 9th, 2020

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  • I absolutely felt alienated and angry that all these unnecessary accusations were flying around, and I didn't even engage.

    I added my pronouns to be nice and I didn't realize we could do it post creation, but holy shit there was DEFINITELY some people actively starting shit. If I had anywhere else to go to feel like an accepted leftist I probably would have. The bullying really activated my fight response because it had the same energy as the traumatic shit I went through where the bullies had the powers-that-be behind them and knew they wouldn't face any consequences. I'm aggressive as hell with the enemy, but man I couldn't hold a candle to a lot of stuff being said. Nobody was stepping back and listening, just fucking accusatory baiting.

    So I to made a thread that would try to humanize everyone and remind us we're on the SAME TEAM and I actually wanted to know more about. Helped me calm down, but the fact remains that I feel like I would be thrown under the bus at any second by my allies for not passing every purity test. I'm sure that isn't an exclusive feeling. Call me a class reductionist, but we have history to fight. Not each other.







  • BreadBoy [he/him]tomainHeh,
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    4 years ago

    Remember having a faint glimmer of hope that everything wouldn't be the worst case scenario?





  • BreadBoy [he/him]
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    toaskchapoHow unbelievably furious are you today?
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    4 years ago

    I tried to get something going at the start of the year and had no success. I'm not the charismatic type. I'm a blunt object to be thrown at a problem until its fixed. And what I desperately want to fix is stubborn brain worms.

    TBH, I doubt I'd have a place in a utopian society besides being a relic.





  • BreadBoy [he/him]tomain*Permanently Deleted*
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    4 years ago

    It's bad. I've been interviewing and job searching since the start and I feel like I've lost so much sanity having to pretend that everything is fine for these fucking HR people. I just want to be able to live and hopefully pay off this fucking degree, doing the dance is ripping away my will to live.