I'll be the first to admit I'm not super informed on a lot of trans stuff, but I'm curious. Is it because it's similar to your dead name, or something completely new? How long did it take for you yourself to get used to hearing/responding to it?
Obviously don't use your real name*
it was a name I read in a book when I was ~11 or 12 and not terribly common then. for some reason I started using it for a character in my head. in my mid twenties, I realized that she was still there, and damn if she didn't feel like a more real and whole person than me. she felt so much more vivid, vibrant, and concrete, but she was just a fantasy I'd live through when I was bored? I started to spend weeks at a time lost in daydreams that I later realized weren't really about her but experiences through her, if that makes sense. but haha, very cis. over the next couple of years, those daydreams/dreams shifted and I started to see the chains/barbed wire on her that were constricting her. she was restrained and couldn't grow or change and it was very apparent to me that it was something I was doing.
it broke down not long after that during an acid trip. I admitted to myself I was trans and needed to transition after a long conversation with her, and I spent a while wrestling with a name, but it was really a foregone conclusion -- like what was I going to go with, someone else's name?
so in a very real way, my name is genuinely, truly my name and has been for most of my life. I was just too disassociated and depersonalized to realize what had happened. it's also really funny to me that my subconscious went with a deeply literal metaphor for repression. like, I think part of me just got really frustrated with how obtuse I was being and started to get more and more on the nose.
Sims 4 random name (for quite a bit) until I found one I liked. Then, when I came out to my friends they shortened it and I liked it
So my deadname is religious. I'm not religious. Not only is it religious it's an adjective related to something my abusive parents abused me for not being.
So I was at a punk show, it was 2am and I was drunk, and wearing gender affirming clothing in front of other people for the first time ever, it was a month after I had publicly come out as trans on facebook. I got a text from this person who I met at a different punk show asking me if I wanted to play D&D with them and their roommates. I said yeah and we set the time for 4pm the next day. I crashed on a couch at the punk house I was at and the next morning I took a train back into the city to chair an IWW meeting. (Big ups to the fellow worker who held my hair when I was throwing up into the office toilet.) I eventually make it this person's apartment and I'm greeted at the door by an extremely beautiful woman wearing next to nothing who invites me in. She uses my pronouns without me having to even tell her. I'm extremely overwhelmed, I'm wearing beatup old jeans, combat boots, and a battle jacket, worse I smell like sweat, cigarettes, and beer, I'm also still extremely hungover. She's apparently the DM. We chat and I meet the third roommate as he's getting out of the shower, he has a towel around his waist, but I can see a pair of scars on his chest. The DM lady is starting to tell me about an art project she's starting on involving her estradiol bottles, I think to myself "she's a bit young for menopause, I wonder why she takes estradiol".
It hits me. Everybody here is trans. I was invited by a nonbinary person, and their roommates are also trans. Hell yeah. We get to making our character sheets. I lament how hard it is to pick a name. The DM jokingly responds "in character or IRL", I laugh and say both. The DM offers to help me brainstorm ideas. I'm down. I'd call myself Cornflower after my favorite flower, but I honestly don't think it'd make a good name for myself. We go through a list of other prairie flowers and I find one I like. I sit with it for 6 months, not really using it, but it just stays in my head. I eventually start naming characters in videogames (my name) and I like it. I take the big leap and use it at Starbucks, to hear an actual human being say my name. The barista compliments me on my name. I start using it with friends, and move up from there. It was actually supposed to be legally changed half a year ago, but covid shut down the court, it's not going to be legal until december, but goddamn I cannot wait.
Uhhh, it took me like a day to get used to people just calling me my name, though I guess I had the experience of videogame characters calling me by my proper name, so that helped I guess, or maybe my name just fits me really well.
Yes, I did the nonbinary stereotype thing of giving myself a noun-name.
I hope music people know this is just as incomprehensible as like car stuff
I tried four different ones. Three variations of my deadname and one that wasn't. I went with easily the sexiest, yet most basic white girl name variation of my deadname. It honestly took me a while to get used to being referred to by my new name and sometimes it feels very surreal.
mine was originally autumn, then i changed it cuz i felt like i kinda outgrew it. then i heard katyusha, the old ass russsian folk song and i fucking loved it. started calling myself katya, and eventually switched over to the german spelling (katja) cuz i felt awkward using a russian name when i wasnt russian lol
I'm not trans, but most of the trans people I know went through a few names before they settled on the right one.
I like the idea of new name March Madness.
Now that I think of it, is there a term for the new name a la dead name? Or is it just name?
I have no idea how to pick one because i genuinely just don't want to be perceived in general. Unfortunately I kinda have to since WLIAS so I guess Terk or my gender-neutral birth name will do until then
ive been trans for months but havent picked a name lol. it seems so permanent, even though ive seen others change their name all the time
yeah that's totally normal! i spent maybe a year before i picked one lol. you don't have to settle on a name in a rush but it can be fun to try some out, and if it ends up not feeling quite right you can try a new one out. for some people the name seemingly won't feel right, until suddenly it clicks. that's how it was for me, i used my eventual name as kind of a placeholder until i found "the right name" and then grew to love it, and it's me now. good luck finding the perfect name!! :heart-sickle:
Trans friend picked the name their parents would have used it they were born the other gender
