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2 days agoCuba, Laos and the DPRK have blue on their flags. And some flags of the soviet republics had blue on them to. Then there some auroras that are blue
Kolibri [she/her]
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·4 days agoWe are, Vampire mentioned that in last week posting, and to add, we don't have much left of vol 3 either. Especially since some chapters that remain are short, a few at least like ch 51, 52, or 46. Not all of course, there still some lengthy chapters from looking ahead.
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Nice and doesn't Real Madrid have a match soon? And oh, I heard of FIFA! And I hope you and others you care for stay safe
Cats are very beautiful creatures. Since you like soccer, do you have a favorite soccer team? and what other video games have you played? I'm not familiar with FC. And I'm sorry for your loss, the zionists will pay for every death and pain they have caused
What are some of your favorite animals? and what are some of the things you like to do?
I'm not exactly what sure to say. And sorry you're in a similar situation, it is rough.
you're not being patronizing. Thanks for the offer, except it most likely I most likely won't. Since it feels like I need to find in person stuff around where I live. I don't know. And if it's not that, it just sort of, really not wanting to be a burden, and I know that kind of feels like hurting myself inadvertly, but I really don't want to bother people too much with this stuff. But then again, I do vent on here a lot on here, or sometimes bring some of this stuff up on here, and someone else has offered to let me reach out to on here to in the past, but it just again. That obstacle of not wanting to be a bother vs needing to talk about stuffAnd another part of me just doesn't want to keep talking about these things anymore because sometimes, it just feels like it's get old for others. Since like it just feels like there's always something. like for example, besides all the alcohol or grief stuff with my mom or my dog
domestic stuff
my mental health is not the best that I also write on here at times, and if it's not that. it's other things like with one of my siblings, mainly her s.o, threatening my dad like four-five months ago. Which is the second time, last time being last year when my mom was ill. but my dad didn't really deserve that. and for some reason this bothers me sometimes.
it's just, always something else, and feels like it's gets old. since it feels like im not doing enough to handle these things on my own, and that I just need to somehow handle it. but on the opposite end, is I can't either at times. but besides that just another part just sort of tired of all of this. tired of being in this same spot, same point. I need to sleep.
talking about my dad, and more heavy things like grief about my mom or my dog cw: alcoholism, death/grief
so yesterday I only slept like three hours, and that was coming off a day when I didn't sleep at all, just staying up an entire day. and then today I only slept four-five hours. like I just woke up not too long ago. anyways while doing that whole sleep deprivation stuff, yesterday. I think that was yesterday? anyways, I noticed my dad only slept like four hours. hardly sleeping like me. but like he woke up at 3am. and I guess he been up all day today. I dunno if he went to sleep during the time I was asleep for a few hours.
but guess what! he been drinking since 3am of yesterday! and I know like, what a week or two ago? he did try to be sober. but he told me that he wanted to started to drinking and I told him that just even having one just gonna cause him to spiral. and here we are now. again. for like. I don't know how many times anymore.
I should be happy that he is still at least trying at times. Of course that only happen when I confronted him two years ago that resulted in him kicking me out for a week or two. That was fun. He still hasn't said sorry for that either, especially when it stemmed from an argument that he caused.
besides that to get into something else. I can't stop thinking again, about my dog that died last month. I legitimately can't stop thinking of having to wrap his body in a blanket and carry him. I can't stop thinking about his dead body. I can't stop of that day. and it makes me think of last year when my mom died when I saw her dead. and I can't get those moments out of my head.
and I don't know who to talk about this to anyone honestly. I don't want to bother my friends with this. Their dealing with their own issues and I am not going to burden them, especially after having a past friend suddenly cut off things with me and accuse me of dragging people down. That hurts and that still haunts me. And it makes it more harder than ever to just talk to people about things. Because then I start questioning "Wait, maybe I'm just being extremely negative and no one wants to hear this."
and I can't talk to my dad about this. Since he's drinking. And when he drinking a ton, there no support from him. If anything, it's the other way around where I need to support him. Get/make him food if he feels like eating, remind him to drink water, see if he's doing alright. Or hear his troubles about how he having trouble sleeping while I'm on three hours of sleep myself.
Just fuck, sometimes I wish I could get away from everything, but where is there to go?
The last few chapters really interesting like chapter 33, and then comparing it to today's time. Where a lot of things are done with banks or credit unions? One of the things this reminded me of is people who say money is dead or dying due to like things going digital? But I think Marx shows that won't ever be the case since there will be plenty of times money will always be needed, especially in times of in crises? At least in capitalist production and that there will always be a medium of sorts? I do kind of wonder how much digital stuff has affected the medium along with credit? Since it probably made things more easier and more efficient. Like referenced here with other stuff
According to the testimony of W. Newmarch before the Bank Committee 1857, No. 1741, other circumstances also contributed to economy in the circulating medium: penny postage, railways, telegraphy, in short, the improved means of communication; thus England can now carry on five to six times more business with about the same circulation of bank-notes.
Also it's really interesting that the last few chapters talked about crises more to.
Talk about centralisation! The credit system, which has its focus in the so-called national banks and the big money-lenders and usurers surrounding them, constitutes enormous centralisation, and gives to this class of parasites the fabulous power, not only to periodically despoil industrial capitalists, but also to interfere in actual production in a most dangerous manner — and this gang knows nothing about production and has nothing to do with it. The Acts of 1844 and 1845 are proof of the growing power of these bandits, who are augmented by financiers and stock-jobbers.
Isn't this what happen in 2008?
I found this footnote from chapter 30 interesting, mainly on Engels talking about crises.
[As I have already stated elsewhere [English edition: Vol. I. — Ed.], a change has taken place here since the last major general crisis. The acute form of the periodic process with its former ten-year cycle, appears to have given way to a more chronic, long drawn out, alternation between a relatively short and slight business improvement and a relatively long, indecisive depression-taking place in the various industrial countries at different times. But perhaps it is only a matter of a prolongation of the duration of the cycle. In the early years of world commerce, 1845-47, it can be shown that these cycles lasted about five years; from 1847 to 1867 the cycle is clearly ten years; is it possible that we are now in the preparatory stage of a new world crash of unparalleled vehemence? Many things seem to point in this direction. Since the last general crisis of 1867 many profound changes have taken place. The colossal expansion of the means of transportation and communication — ocean liners, railways, electrical telegraphy, the Suez Canal — has made a real world-market a fact. The former monopoly of England in industry has been challenged by a number of competing industrial countries; infinitely greater and varied fields have been opened in all parts of the world for the investment of surplus European capital, so that it is far more widely distributed and local over-speculation may be more easily overcome. By means of all this, most of the old breeding-grounds of crises and opportunities for their development have been eliminated or strongly reduced. At the same time, competition in the domestic market recedes before the cartels and trusts, while in the foreign market it is restricted by protective tariffs, with which all major industrial countries, England excepted, surround themselves. But these protective tariffs are nothing but preparations for the ultimate general industrial war, which shall decide who has supremacy on the world-market. Thus every factor, which works against a repetition of the old crises, carries within itself the germ of a far more powerful future crisis. — F. E.]
Since the part of about "But these protective tariffs are nothing but preparations for the ultimate general industrial war, which shall decide who has supremacy on the world-market. Thus every factor, which works against a repetition of the old crises, carries within itself the germ of a far more powerful future crisis" Reminds me a lot of Lenin's work on Imperialism. Also feels like Engels kind of saw the great depression?
Also I like the footnote of Engels talking about a childhood story in 29.
We're half way through vol three
Excuse me? Are you seriously trying to use what I went through to justify your point? Especially when OP and his relationship with his mom is a lot different than mine? And it's up to OP to decide what he wants to do with his relationship, not any of us?
What a weird question. No I didn't! I even stuck to her to the very end on the day she died. But I can't forget some of the hurtful things she said.
The boundary seemed to be to just stop talking so much about Trump. But Vernon_Tennessee clarified and that doesn't seem to be it. Besides you don't need to tell me that an adult will see their parent decline. Since I'm seeing my dad drink himself to death and I saw my mom decline before she died. But I kind of got upset because again, my mom was starting to take a lot of shit out on me, especially by getting very transphobic towards me before she died.
Sorry it just seem liked from reading into your post it seemed like a boundary of sorts.
I legitimately don't care. It seems like the creator of the thread expressed boundaries and his mom can't respect that. Or what, just because his mom is his mom gives his mom excuse to walk all over that?
Maybe you should grow up. Before my mom died she got extremely transphobic and directed a lot of it at me due to being trans. If I listen to you, I wouldn't have any right to get upset at her for anything she said. And I made it very clear a few times to her that I wasn't going to tolerate her transphobic shit.
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venting, mainly medical stuff
I can't sleep again. and I have a migraine again and it hurts. I was laying down in the dark, trying to sleep, maybe hoping it goes away. but can't do that if I can't fall asleep! and moving around just painful because then the right side of my head starts to hurt a ton. I did try to take a shower to maybe just relax so maybe I can sleep later on, but I ended up like, needing to sit on the floor waiting for that pulsating pain to stop
I'm kind of frustrated since I was also really looking forward towards sleeping to. but that not happening. at least for now. maybe later on. It would be nice if my sleep was normal instead of whatever this sleep pattern is. I wouldn't even call it a pattern at this point with how disrupted it is.