Transfimmler works better than trans hitler 😉

Thank you~

I don't think I talk that much. A lot of the time, when I do its something that didn't need to be said.

You don't need to! It's nice to have someone quiet around. That second sentence is just a judgment, and it's probably untrue.

Shocking, hard for me to understand why or accept this

You're kind. No matter how much pain you're feeling, you always have it in you to be empathetic to others. Kindness is also strength.

I'm not good at conversation, I don't fit in.

I mean... Maybe you don't fit into cis heteronormative white supremacist capitalist culture, but... Is that bad?

You fit in perfectly in a room full of neurodiverent trans people

don't want to look like I'm endlessly begging for affirmation or anything.

Nobody thinks this <3

I can't relate to avpd in particular, but I suffer from sever general anxiety, and it's in the same family, at least. (Well, I say I HAD it. It only flares up in extreme situations these days--which I'm in at the moment!!)

I know you've been going to therapy, and talk therapy is the most effective treatment. You think you've seen no progress?

I think you're quite social. You post here all the time, and I see you chatting on matrix. You're not always sad. You joke around, people like having you around. It's all online, but that doesn't mean it's fake. Those are real relationships, even if they are distant and somewhat shallow.

Even when you are posting dark things, that shows that you can be vulnerable around others. There's a level of trust. It seems to me that you've already broken a lot of barriers if you're not scared to be vulnerable around us.

You know that your negative views toward yourself are cognitive distortions. They can be changed.

You're always welcome to post your pain here, but I think it would be good for you to also be nicer to yourself publicly, too. Sometimes, when we write these things out and publish them, they feel more real.

Solidarity