So I got asked to stop using the women's restroom at work yesterday. This is already transphobic, but with where I live I was expecting this honestly. I'm also not very far in my transition so wearing typical work clothes just makes me look like a dude with long hair. Really getting depressed by those twink death memes I've seen rn because I was so much cuter when I came out.

Anyways, the point where it goes from uncomfortable but bearable to pissing me off to the absolute extreme is when the manager said "We have minors that work here so we have certain liabilities". I straight up responded saying "You just implied that I'm a threat around minors and I don't appreciate that". Instantly backpedaled and gave all the normal lib platitudes. I'm still fucking pissed, because why else mention the minors in that conversation? Unless you think I'm unsafe around minors, you wouldn't mention minors. I don't even work with the minors of the restaurant, they're all in school while I work the mornings on mostly weekdays.

I also know that certain staff don't like me now based off this, because it was some staff complaining. I'm gonna start being the person I want to be at work, and I'll just fucking deal with it. I'm going to lose my shit at these people next time they're blocking my station doing jack shit because I know it was them. They won't even look at me. I was super nice this whole time, but I'm done being nice to people that secretly hate me all while depending on my labor.

"If ever there is a total freedom of dress, then the effeminate people will connect with female society, just as the man-women will befriend the so-called stronger sex. When there is no longer a dress code, the woman-man will grow into the feminine and be attracted by the man-woman, because by nature both feel right for each other, he as a woman and she as a man, and they will live as happily together as any normal married couple of today.
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"But if two get married, one of whom is a woman-man and one a man-woman, then he is the feminine and she is the masculine part, and they will be happy; for, no matter what the sex is, emotionally they still are, indeed, opposite sexes, just as nature made them."

"I am convinced that when a boy becomes 8 or 10 years of age and shows preference for girls' clothing, girls' work, and girls' games, then the mother, for the benefit of the child, should let him have free choice. The boy is, then, namely, only sexually a male, but mentally a female, and when such children are raise according to their feelings, then they are so much happier than when people punish them, mock them, or even abuse them to produce boyishness.
"But, if he is raised as a girl, then he will lose all doubt and wil become more stable in his girlishness, so that he then never will ever want to become a man; if he is forced to behave as a boy, then he will feel destroyed and will yearn for the time when he can make a living as a maid or something like that.
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"I will agree that up to the fifth year, perhaps, many children can still be raised in their sex, but then mostly not, and if the girlish characteristics appear much stronger than the boyish ones, then it is much better for the child to be raise according to its mental sex."

i have been so happy these past few weeks. i'm back in letter writing mode and it's because of one very special person. it is genuinely so fulfilling to have something like a mind-meld with someone who sees me so clearly and respects me so deeply. i didn't expect this at all and i feel so so lucky to have it. lol i'm pretty sure fae is going to read this at some point actually... it makes me happy to imagine that. 💜🌹